recognation

Am I important enough? It would be so ultra cool to have someone actually nominate me for one of those "woman of the day" kinda of things. But does anyone in my family think enough of me to do something like that? NO. To have someone praise me, write a letter about how much I mean to them, how wonderful and caring I am. I mean really, I am a caring person. Dang it....

Write a letter about me and what I do, who I am and my importance and controbutions to the world. *sigh* prolly never happen. Gary is not thoughtful enough to do so, and the kids... well kids are naturally self centered at this age. They are still in elementry school. My birth family, well, they are kinda self centered hopeless cases too.... it would take to much effort on the part of another person for them to perform an act like that. *shakes head* so much for being important to someone.

working again

well so much for getting to go to the ren fair with beth. No one would work for me or trade shifts... I worked an extra shift. c'est la via I guess. the money will be nice.

Migrains again.

still dealing with death of a co-worker. how strange to be upset over it still. But part of it is that everyone seems to be talking it over and over and over again. So I end up hearing about it again and again, so very depressing.

oh well, gotta love it. Cant shot people for stupidity, but damn it would be nice. See I do have a violent temper to match the red hair, just dont show it. I'll be one of the mean grannies in the home someday, the one that no one wants to take care of. LOL. I find myself amusing.

oh well, still fighting with my computer system. It would prolly be faster if I had the time to devote an afternoon to fixing it. But as it is, it's ten minutes here or there. I stormed through the house today threatening to upgrade... I think a lap top would be nice. $$$$ yeah that'll happen.

oh well, time for rounds again. time to chart again. *smirk*

To really screw up you need a computer

Computer problems. my system has been having problems and due to work and my messed up sleep schedule I have been unable to complete de-bug it. So I cant get to the internet. I have fixed the problem where it freezes before completing the startup process. At least some progress there. Anyway it is frustrating due to my dependance on the internet and my computer for things like banking and bill paying, email and a connection with the outside world. Pudunk Texas is just so removed from the rest of the world. It's like living in a freaking episode of the twillight zone where everything is encased in a bubble and not aging or moving forward for 20 years behind the rest of the world.

Whinning, tantrum throwing children. Oh God love 'em. God give me the patients to change the things I can, the wisdom to know the difference and a really big stick to beat them with.

A former co-worker of mine died. She was mid-40's, charge nurse, very caring, someone I liked. Aleatha. Very upsetting in a vague, I dont get it, sort of way. Today was the funeral, and I had class. Was so tired after working 12 hours and going to class. Came home and slept till the children bounded in and woke me up after they got home from school.

Anyeay, There's been so many things I wanted a chance to write about this week, and have been unable to d/t the computer problems. Now as I sit in front of the keyboard they have gone away.

I did get out from under my contract with Rue, the damn money grubbing basterds. I have paid them over $800.00 but at least I dont have to pay them anything more.

Anyway, that's the update as of today, and I can remember.